Its been a busy few months since I moved out of London, starting again from scratch in many respects, but its been invigorating rather than daunting.
I've been working on 9 canvases simultaneously over the past month or so, from A6 size up to roughly 1m square - moving between them for a change of focus when disaster strikes, or to tray and avert it!
I made a conscious decision to be brave and to put myself out there - if not now, when, right? - speaking to galleries, art groups and other contacts, and this week I found out I've been selected to exhibit as part of PURE Arts at their annual Art Fair in October, and also as part of Kent Painters Group, at their annual show at the end of October.
As I'm a little late to the party - on both counts - I've now got a month to complete 4 paintings for each show. I confess this is more than a little nerve wracking, but Ive got a couple of pieces in reserve if necessary so I'm just going to give it a go and see what happens. Some days can be immensely productive, everything flows and a painting just works, but honestly, these days are rare for me, and its usually much more of a struggle - slogging away at something that gets worse by the minute and sometimes never comes good.
I know, its not exactly a mortal hardship to paint and fail and work for days on end on a painting that is actually so bad you end up painting over it, but I do sometimes wish it was an easier and more positive process. I guess its another of those important reminders that life keeps giving me, albeit on a comfortingly small and unimportant scale this time: there are no guarantees that your plans will come to fruition in the way you imagined, you never know how things are going to end up and there are limits to your ability to influence any of it, but just keep going, embrace the failures as well as the successes, and if you're still standing at the end of the day, then it's been a good one.
Juggling the painting hours with the school summer holiday promises I made is going to be an interesting 'challenge' so I'm off on holiday for a week to get some brownie points in early. Nothing like a bit of time pressure to focus the mind I guess, maybe it'll have a transformative effect on my working style - - let's hope so!